Hello all! Wow, I didn't realize how long it has been since I was last on to write. I just read Matt's blog about our church changes and the "funk" that we went through after losing our baby. I can say that was the hardest thing that I have ever gone through.
The thing I wanted to add to Matt's blog was that he was very supportive during those weeks of hurt and confusion. We both seem to push each other a little bit away even through we both wanted to just hold onto each other. The pain was unbelievable! Even through I didn't want to go back to school, I did so the very next day after finding out we lost our baby. I cried most of the day. With God's help I made it. I don't remember much about the first couple of days ... they are pretty much a blur. I do know that we made it through. We are so much stronger as a couple. I love Matt with all my heart. I didn't know I could love someone that much!
Update about our journey to conceive again ....
It has been a rocky road. We have been poked in every conceivable way. Today we went to two different appointments. At the first appointment I had bloodwork and an ultrasound done. During the ultrasound we found out that I have 2 big ovarian cyst on my right ovary. The left ovary looks good but the right one is pretty much covered by those 2 cyst. They believe this is because the medicine over stimulated my ovaries. That means we can not go on any fetility drugs this month. They wanted to put me on birth control pills for this month and then go back to the fetility drugs next month. However, at our afternoon appointment, and the conversation with the doctor, we decided that we would stop all medications and not take birth control pills at this time. We are going to take a couple of months off and then start it up again. Our doctor will monitor us during this time, but my body needs a break.
I will, I promise, get on again very soon with more updates. Right now I am going out for a nice evening out! :)
